No,I'm not puking to lose weight. But I have so much going on in my head I feel like I need to purge some of it.
First, I miss my Dad. A lot. He died November 15, 2007. It seems like the last couple of weeks I've missed him tremendously. I need to admit that, admit that there's pain there, that I still shed tears and that it's hard. I miss my dad.
Second, about the job loss thing. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I was deceived by my employer for a long time before I left. He owes me a LOT of money. In fact, he owes a lot of people a lot of money. People are asking me to assist them with legal action against him to get access to what is owed to them. It's complicated and I don't like it.
Third, my husband still loves me, adores me and is seeing me through this mess. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.
And fourth, I'm still hanging in there with the food plan. I'm down another 1.8 pounds and if anything am having to force myself to eat some days. I'm an emotional noodle, crying at everyhing (including peanut butter commercials), trying to find my way. But Prince Charming still loves me and God still promises to love and guide me.
I'm gonna be ok... I just gotta keep moving forward...
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I am sorry you are feeling sad. The dad thing is a hard one and I hope you can find comfort in your family (and blogland). I am proud that you are sticking to the food plans during your sad time...
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs and love!
I do know how you feel. My Mom died in 2005 and there are still days I burst into tears in seconds and realize how much I have been missing her. It's extremely hard. Only those of us who have gone through it really know. I will keep you in my prayers for sure.
ReplyDeleteWow.... you are doing a tremendous job with the weight loss. It is awesome that you have such a supportive man and that you have been able to stick to your plan through it all. I am so proud of you! Way to go!!
Hugs and all good thoughts your way,
Julie
I too understand your pain with the loss of your father. My father passed away July '06 relatively suddenly from a surprise diagnosis of cancer (the type that is difficult to diagnose and impossible to catch in time to try to reverse). I was 23 when he passed away, he was only 51. There are many many days in which I find myself suddenly just in tears even to this day and it usually has something to do with a happy moment I wished to share with my dad, or a new video game coming out that I just KNOW he would love, etc. I was a daddy's girl, what can I say? :)
ReplyDeleteBut, chin up, the days get better, and life goes on. I just remind myself he's there in spirit if not in flesh.
/hugs
Farsy